Every morning at some point I walk over to the cube next door and plop down in the chair and talk to my neighbor. We joke, we talk about our families, and we gossip. I am going to miss this routine, when I am staying home with Sydney full time. While I am ecstatic about staying home and have wanted this with all my heart and know I am making the right decision, I’m admittedly a little nervous too! Maternity leave was fantastic and I’m hoping this transition will be just as great. I loved being home with her, but in the back of my mind I knew I would have to go back to work and would be able to resume this routine with my neighbor in the cube next door (adult conversation). While I wished I could be home when I was at work, I loved that this routine resumed and I was allowed adult conversation once again, instead of the one sided ones I had with Sydney. After a series of events that put the ball in motion, I put in my two weeks notice and here we stand, 2 work days between me and SAH Motherhood.
I have been working at my job for the past 4 and a half years, the people I work with are like family, we yell over the cubes and joke around. I probably see them more than most of my family. I get to go to work and have adult interaction without holding a baby and doing the baby sway (although sometimes I do catch myself standing around swaying without a baby in sight), I get to go to the bathroom on my own time, I get to eat one meal a day in peace and quiet. I am ready to give up the bathroom and lunch breaks, no problem, but I am worried about giving up the social aspect of being a working mom, who will I talk to besides a 7 month old all day? Sydney keeps a pretty tight nap schedule, so how realistic is it going to be to go out on play dates? Will I become lonely? I think by nature I am a pretty social person. I know that I am lucky that I have a number of friends who are SAHM’s, but even so, as we approach the cold winter months, how easy is it going to be to get out? I guess these are all questions we face as we embark on new roles as SAHM’s and I’m sure that the social aspect of my life will work itself out, but I sure am going to miss the lady in the cube next door, hope she doesn’t mind my morning calls and I sure hope Sydney doesn’t mind me having a morning “conference call” to help me keep my sanity!